Crying For Love

When I was young,
Then I was not yet strong
I hardly make a choice
Of whom to love
But years ago
I boomed into a strange relationship
May be I was in a deep sleep
But, I eventually failed to win the war
I pursued in a loss.
No arbitrary of bargain
Wins a love suit
From a reluctant and malignant love,
Vanity subscriber is all, but void
What a toy of a thot?
I notice her on the spot...
The reluctance unlike a substance
In a soluble solid...

I faced the agony of impossible love
Today, as I reminiscent in tears,
My heart is still crying for love.
What a great lost?